Good News Now: Control by Sarah Grijalva

A note from Jeff: Over the next few months, we'll be doing a series entitled Good News Now. Various people will be sharing why the gospel is good news for them, right here and right now. Sarah Grijalva has blessed us with the first entry in this series. If you have a reflection you'd like to share, please let me know,

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Up until a few weeks ago, I considered myself a fearful person. I’ve always been afraid of the unknown and of not being in control. So I would either meticulously over-plan or just avoid certain situations. For example, a few years ago I was really scared to start student teaching because I didn’t know what to expect. I was also the person who did all the extra credit, even though I already had good grades.

As you can imagine, I hated roller coasters because they purposely make you feel out of control. What a terrible invention! When I visited amusement parks, I only selected rides where I still felt in control. The swings fit that category just about right.

But these past few years, God has been growing my faith and confidence in Him. As I learn more about the Gospel, I realize how much God loves me and takes care me. If God gave His only Son to save me, won’t He also take care of the small details of my life? I am valuable to Him.

Recently, I went to Santa Cruz with my family. This amusement park is home to a classic, wooden, roller coaster called the Giant Dipper. As a young girl, I was persuaded to ride it and was scared to death. I thought I was scarred for life.

Anyway, during this most recent visit, I wanted to try the Giant Dipper again. As I boarded the car and we plunged into the first dark tunnel, I realized two things (and thought, “Hey, I should write a blog about this!”)

  1. This was the exact same roller coaster that had traumatized me years ago. It still had a steep, sickening plunge and plenty of twists and turns. I was still completely out of control.
  2. At the same time, I noticed that my reaction was different. Although the ride hadn’t changed, something inside of me had changed. My fear of being out of control was conquered even before I stepped on the ride. It had been chiseled away bit by bit when…
  • My dad got into a serious car accident that totaled my car, yet God protected him and provided a much nicer car for me.
  • I stood shaking before my first class of high schoolers, yet God surprised me with tremendous joy and confidence.
  • I faced low energy, low cash, big deadlines, and big problems, yet God provided again and again for me.

So with this fortified faith, I sat back and enjoyed the rickety roller coaster that had once terrified me. I actually felt like laughing!

God demonstrated His love for me on the cross, and He demonstrates it every day of my life in how he cares for me. I trust him for salvation, and with the unexpected things life brings.